Saturday, July 7, 2012

London Olympics

Hi everyone

Well this is one post I really didn't want to have to write, and you might want to grab a cuppa because its a bit of a long one!

Unfortunately my 2012 Olympic campaign is over. The hamstring injury I sustained in Ratingen did not heal in time for me to compete in France tomorrow to do a qualifying standard before the cut off date this Sunday.

I had a self-imposed fitness test on Wednesday in Valencia, and whilst I could run comfortably at about 85% in spikes I couldn't make the next step up to 100% without pain and the serious risk of tearing the hammy again and unfortunately an Olympic level heptathlon requires more than 85% speed in the hurdles, 200m and long jump. I knew that I would not be able to find 25% more in two days.

I had an MRI in Switzerland two weeks ago and the specialist I saw regarding the results confirmed a grade two tear and said that it would be six weeks to heal fully. I tried everything I could to beat the odds and prove him wrong. Andrew and I came to Valencia to be with the NZ Sprint Bike Team to use their therapist John, who did an amazing job to speed the process and get me to where I am now, but unfortunately I have just run out of time as it would have only needed probably another week to be at full fitness. 

I guess I can take some comfort in the fact that there are thousands of other athletes around the world who are hurting just as much right now as Olympic teams are being announced and they are not named, for whatever reason. Especially several NZ athletes who I know personally who have also been robbed of their 2012 Olympic dream through injury. What makes it particularly hard for me this time is the fact that I was in the best shape of my career, and that I won’t have another chance to physically express in a heptathlon what we worked so hard to build in training.

Whilst I would love to say that I don't want to finish my career on a low like this and that I will keep competing (as I did post-Delhi in 2010 when I made the decision to aim for the London Olympics), this time I have to look at the past two years and the ongoing injury battles and realise that at 34 years old my body is trying to tell me something! If only I hadn't chosen one of the most physically demanding, high impact events I could consider trying to line up in Rio in 2016, or in Moscow at World Champs next year, but that's just not a reality now. Four surgeries, countless cortizone injections, stress fractures and a good old hamstring tear to round it off...needless to say I've got some good battle scars!

But its the highlights of my career that I need to focus on, rather than the injuries:
- Olympian (2008)
- 2 x Commonwealth Games (2006 and 2010)
- 1 x World Champs (2003)
- 2 x World Uni Games (2001 and 2005)
- 3 x NZ Records (400m hurdles, 4x100 and 4x400 relays)
- NZ Champion in both heptathlon and 400m hurdles
- Top 10 all time in NZ for 400m hurdles, 400m, 200m, heptathlon, shot put and javelin
- The amazing places I have visited, the amazing experiences I have had, the amazing people I have met and the life lessons I have learned along the way....

This particular Olympic campaign has to rate up there in terms of career highlights - to come from foot and hip surgery, a stress fracture and surviving an earthquake or two (!) in the past 18 months to being in the best shape of my life and doing the huge score that was my first 5 events in Ratingen is something to be celebrated, and is a testimony to my ability as an athlete and the work Andrew and Angus have done using some of the most un-traditional training methods that really do work! Had I been able to complete the event I would have qualified with ease and given the NZ record a good nudge in the process. But it was just that one small moment in the long jump when my body was just in the wrong position at the wrong time and boom it was game over just like that. Its amazing how the difference between elation and devastation can be measured in such small instances, but such is life. The "what ifs" have been run through in my head a thousand times since that moment. We often talked during trainings in Dunedin about the strength and technical ability I was building being like a “birthday present” that I would be able to open at the heptathlon in Ratingen. Unfortunately I had the present in my hands and had just ripped a little corner off the wrapping paper to peek inside, but wasn’t allowed to open it and fully enjoy the gift!! 

The great thing about Ratingen was that for a few hours I had that feeling that every athlete chases and that makes all the hard work worthwhile...that feeling that I had during the high jump and shotput in particular, where you have the timing right and the energy is right and the performances flow out so easily you surprise yourself and you feel invincible, like you are flying, and you perform better than you have at any other time in your career, and the end result is a personal best. Its like a drug and when you get a taste of it you want that feeling more and more, and I guess for me that is partly why I have continued with my athletics as long as I have - because I am addicted to that drug! 

At this stage I am not sure what the next chapter of my life will entail. If anyone has any bright ideas or job offers I am all ears!! Right now I am staying in Europe as I have been offered a job working for the NZ Olympic Committee in the NZ House in London for the duration of the Games (if anyone is in London come and say hi, more info about it here: http://www.olympic.org.nz/london-2012/kiwi-house). It will be incredibly hard to be in London in the thick of things and not be competing, salt in the wounds, especially when now even looking at a can of coke in the supermarket with the Olympic rings on it makes a knot in my stomach! But who knows what kind of doors may open as a result of being there. I would also like to be able to cheer on my good friend Sarah Cowley who will be there smashing it up in the heptathlon and flying the NZ flag! I know how hard she has worked to get there and it is very cool that she will be able to realise her dream and become an Olympian (Follow more of her story at www.sarahcowley.com).

There are so many people to thank...my coaches, in particular Andrew who has coached me since 1997 and has grown into an amazingly talented coach, I couldn’t have done any of it without you; Angus who took me on when I was at my most broken post Delhi and helped to build me into the strongest most powerful athlete I have ever been; and Phil King who coached me during my 2004 Olympic journey back when I was doing 400m hurdles. To my family, especially Mum, Dad, Nins and Andrew who travelled the world to cheer me on and gave me everything I needed to be the best I could be, and my friends who have given me unconditional support and encouragement, thank you all a million times over. A huge thank you to all the physios, massage therapists, doctors, surgeons and sports psychs who have helped to pick me back up when I have been broken and helped to give me longevity in my career. To my sponsors (adidas, Horleys, Blackmores, Skins, Em’s Cookies, and Kevin Hickman) thanks so much for sticking by me and making the journey so much easier financially. To the staff at Athletics NZ, Athletics Canterbury, Old Boys United Club and HPSNZ thank you for your support and belief in me. And to everyone else who has helped me in some way....whether it was being one of my training buddies, a work colleague, someone giving me a flexible part-time job or even just a few words of encouragement by email, thank you!

Its the end of an era for me...one that started at QEII in Christchurch at my first NZ National Champs in 1997 when I finished last in the U20 200m but had fallen in love with the sport, and ends here, not quite the fairy tale ending I would have liked, but I am still immensely proud of what my team and I have achieved all the same. Thank you to you all for receiving my emails over the past years and being with me in spirit both at training and in competitions.

Aureviour from France,

Becky

13 comments:

  1. Becs!!!! bugguar! hope your ok its great now you can come back to the hostel

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  2. You are an inspiration to us all!! Amazing acheivements, you should be so proud. I'm sure the next stage of your life will be full of joy and successes, and the memories of the passion you have here will always be yours.

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  3. You will be great at whatever you decide to do Becs - all the best for the future!

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  4. Dear Rebecca,
    I am sorry to hear the news, but you are just a Great Champion!!
    Please cheer up and keep going as focused as you have always been.
    Cheers,
    Andre Dantas

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  5. It's a bugger, but you have given it all. Left no stone unturned. Your work ethic is unmatched and you really are an inspiration. Well done Becs. Bloody marvellous. Brent Ward

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  6. I 100% echo what Brent wrote! You have been my role model since I met you over seven years ago, and don't think you're going to stop that!! I remember I thought you were going to be a frightful superathlete person (with all that you had achieved) but my admiration began that avo at Boys High when you were excited to meet a little wee Rangi girl!!
    We are all hurting right now with you Bec, but I guess none of us will understand fully. Hugs can smooth over that chasm.
    Wowza the non-athletics world is going to get a real shock when you pile your energies elsewhere!! A new phase has begun..
    I propose that we fund a little ink drawing on your skin of LEGEND to remind yourself of what you are!!
    Young bones :-)

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  7. Its ok rebecca,
    you are the champion and you will be stay in our minds for your hard efforts,
    Stay Bless!

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  8. Before your story, I had no idea what the heptathlon was. You made one ignorant person a fan. I can't begin to fathom your disappointment. But I hope you take comfort in knowing you have touched so many people. After this summer is over, my memory will fade and I will quickly forget who won gold in the 2012 Olympics. I can assure you I will never forget the name Rebecca Wardell.

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  9. Hi Rebecca,
    It was nice to meet you and your mother yesterday in the Gotschna restaurant at Serneus, Switzerland. As curious as I am, I searched for your blog and read the whole story. It must be so disappointing when you aim for the Olympics and your body says: NO. I hope that you will have a good time in London with all your friends and other athletes, be it without competition. Must be wonderful to be there. Enjoy it !! Whenever you come back to that tiny village in the Alps, always welcome to have a cup ! I did write the above also on your facebookaccount. Don't know if it's active.
    Rob and Joan

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    1. Hello Rob and Joan, it was nice to meet you in Serneus, such a beautiful part of the world! Thanks for your kind wishes. I did not see the facebook post...I think you may have the wrong account? Hopefully see you again at the Gotschna one day! Cheers, Rebecca

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    2. tried another message on FB. Hope it works. The heptathlon competition began yesterday. I watched the athletes and was thinking of you. The Dutch athletes did very well. Grtz Rob.

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  10. Hi Rebecca, We have been thinking of you quite a lot as these games warmed up and I just felt we should say your efforts and persistence over the years reflect the Olympic message so completely and we hope you always feel proud of that. I am so pleased that you and Jane have had such a fantastic road trip to smell the roses.

    Greetings from the Butchers in Holmes Road

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